Sorry about that little cliff hanger there, but I like to keep you all interested !! So, it’s around day 3 now isn’t it, and I was starting to feel a little more settled, weather it was because I had Anastasia beside me looking after me or because I had finally come to terms with…… Continue reading Missing your babies, so much it hurts.
I guess it’s been over 6 months since my last read, and I thought maybe now it was time to write again… Sorry for my absence. But reliving my past, putting every emotion down into words, opening up to the public, kind of took it out of me…. and I wanted a little break! Don’t…… Continue reading Meeting Anastasia
Reality still hadn’t me as I walked down those stairs, my head was spinning… but for some strange reason, right now I felt a little more relaxed. Finally, my fate was sealed and I now felt I really could start to get better. Time to myself, away from everyone, everything to really focus on sorting…… Continue reading Day 1 – HMP PETERBOROUGH
*Gulp* My heart was in my mouth, nicky and the kids were the other side of the door. “I guess you probably know what this is about Jodie, we need you to come down to the station to be interviewed” I tried to say I would meet them there, like I had before, but this…… Continue reading Preparing for the worst
So… What do you do after you’ve hit rock bottom and nearly killed your self? Bury your head in the sand? Or get back up AGAIN, and fight? GET UP AND FIGHT. I don’t remember much around what happened after I tried to take my life, I do remember how my Dad came down on…… Continue reading Take 2
It was a cold evening and the wind was up, I’d like to be able to tell you which day of the week it was, but I was in such a bad place, my memory slips before me. I had hurt so many people around me, and I couldn’t see a way out. Gambling had…… Continue reading It’s ok, not to be ok.
As I approach the metal gates surrounding Lowestoft probation, I suddenly feel small, there were so many men, all different nationalities, various sizes and generations. I felt singled out and very intimidated. I was ordered to carry out 180 hours of unpaid work, and so far I’d managed a whole 30 seconds before I turned…… Continue reading Problems & Probation